Ancora Io (Novel)
These are fragments for a novel under construction.
We met Betty in an earlier story. Slowing down but not old, widowed but not bitter, Betty is the chief librarian of a small New England library.
Like most Chief Librarians, she has inherited some troublesome books.
Not the ones that are just hard to read. The other ones: the books that consume
other books and become more powerful. Powerful enough to change the world. Now
some of Betty's friends have stumbled on a library that does the same.
Jess (Chronicles of Eliza)
You see a manuscript in front of you, and you reach to pick
it up. You feel its unbalanced weight as you draw it close. The title, “Chronicles
of Eliza”, is written in a black pen. Below, in a fainter hand, is written “by
Jess”.
On the front of the bundle is a yellow post-it note, “Dear
reader, this story should be read alone, at night, even though it is being
written here from time to time, on paper.”
You untie the ribbon that bundle the pages together, careful
not to scatter the loose pages within. But there is no order here. Your eyes
settle on the unnumbered top page.
“I came to the portal on the Jenolan River. A trek along the
Jenolan River below the caves and beyond the Blue Lake will take you to places
unimaginable.
If you do step through this portal, a portal of ordinary
natural power, you will never be able to go back to the world you knew. Not
because of magic, nor the sharp smell of herbage all around nor the gin you
drank last night.
If you must go back, you will go back to a world changed. It
will be a world where the colors are faded and the shadows are darker.”
The Black Cat (1)
The black cat left Jess and made its way by leaps and bounds
up the vines leading to the mantle of the highest window of the old library. It
hissed and a great raven left in a complaint of feathers and claws. The cat
pressed its eye to the cold glass. From here it could see the old librarian at
her desk on the first floor and the dark rooms of the town museum on the second
floor. The cat reached out and pushed the glass.
Betty (1)
Betty sat at her desk waiting for assistant librarian Thelma
to arrive. She took a deep breath and reviewed her concerns one last time. Thelma
was young, smart and... Betty frowned. Betty ran through the prosopography of
all library assistants past and present. She clenched a fist and slammed it
into a waiting hand, "She isn't ready!"
The dust behind her stirred and twisted into the air. A chill
filled the old library. Books shuffled on the shelves. Upstairs, in the old
museum, the floor settled softly. Betty listened for calm to be restored. Betty
looked at her desk, immaculately clean. She mumbled, "Or maybe it is just
that I am not ready for this."
She heard the shuffle of feet outside the Library and the
practiced turn of a key.
Thelma (1)
The door opened, and Thelma gave her a wave and a cheery
hello before moving to knock the snow off boots and to shake out her umbrella.
Thelma forestalled Betty’s remonstrance, chirping without a hint of
defensiveness, "I will clean it up. The landing was too muddy." She
hung her jacket and ear muffs on the old wrought iron rack and went to find a
mop.
Betty said to herself, "I just came in there myself, it
wasn't muddy then." Young people these days are far too casual with the
truth. And then, again, the doubts started.
Thelma said, "Ok, I have two hours. Sarah is
babysitting for me. Would you like a coffee?"
Betty was caught off guard, "When did Sarah come home?”
They looked at each other across the library for a moment, and Betty broke
first, “Yes, I need a coffee."
Thelma shrugged, "I didn't know she had gone anywhere.
She is a sweet girl, I trust her. Besides, she brought a friend, you know,
Roddi from the Reading Group." There was the sound of cutlery, the biscuit
tin being opened, and Thelma continued, “Roddi is helping her research stuff on
the internet.”
Betty bit down the warning sitting at the back of her
throat.
Betty said, "Thelma, I need to tell you
something."
Thelma put two coasters on the desk and pulled up a chair,
"I know already."
Betty said, "What? What do you know?"
Thelma said, "It's about the Arthur Conan Doyle
exhibit."
Betty shook her head but could not help herself, "Sir
Arthur Conan Doyle. And it is the Sherlock Holmes Exhibit. Remember that here
we name exhibits after books not writers.” Like most librarians, Betty had a
poor opinion of writers: at best a
necessary evil; at worst intrusive and self-serving.
Betty fought to restore self-control, but curiosity got in
the way, “What about the exhibit?"
Thelma took a sip of the coffee, "Well, I think we
should tell the truth about Doyle. The whole truth."
Betty suddenly wondered if two hours was going to be long
enough. She said, "What?"
Thelma said, "Well, you know he was a doctor in the
Anglo-Boer War."
Betty mumbled non-committedly.
Thelma continued, "He was at Bloemfontein, at the
height of that city's typhoid fever epidemic. A thousand soldiers died there.
He saw it happen and knew how to prevent it. Instead, he caved in. He could
have easily prevented so many deaths."
Betty started to put her hand up, but Thelma rushed,
"In the first World War, more people died from typhoid than on the
battlefield. If Doyle had stood his ground, typhoid deaths would have been
eliminated. We have to..."
There was a crash from upstairs, and the lights flickered.
Out of sight, deep in the recesses of the library, the surface of a book
shimmered. The book was covered by a pattern of tiny scales; regular,
fascinating and frightening.
The two librarians looked at each other and froze. Silence
returned. Betty shook her head, “Maybe just the wind banging one of the old
windows.” Thelma looked at her, wondering about the disruption from a couple of
weeks earlier. Seeing her chance, Thelma continued, "So many..."
There was another crash from upstairs. This time it was
followed by the sickening splitting sound of wood. Betty jumped to her feet as
the light died. She shuffled in her bag and drew out a large metal torch, the
weapon of choice of most senior librarians. She switched the light on directly
into Thelma's eyes.
Betty hissed, "No. I do not want to talk to you about
the Sir Arthur Conan Doyle exhibit. Will you just listen to me for a
moment!"
Thelma squinted and turned her head from the torch light,
and said conversationally, "So, can I include a small section in the
exhibit about him being the greatest killer in world history?"
Betty remembered Mabel's warning, delivered with a wavering
voice, "I pray you never need to concern yourself with these, the ones
that twist and turn in the dark." Betty whispered loudly, "Thelma!
There might be something upstairs. I need you to believe me regardless of what
you might think."
Thelma said with the confidence of youth, "You said it
yourself, it's just the wind."
Betty started, “No…” but the lights flickered a couple of
times, and then resumed with a dull golden glow.
Betty snapped off the torch light and wondered about the
wisdom of climbing the stairs. She resumed her seat and thought. When Betty had
become the chief librarian, she had done things that Mabel would never have
allowed. Betty repressed her reservations about telling the towns folk that
their favorite author was a mass killer. Instead, she turned to Thelma,
"You can include an extract from a reputable source but only if you
promise to believe everything I am about to tell you."
Thelma smiled and risked a happy cry, "You are the
best!"
Betty caught a flash of light, near the ceiling.
Thelma followed her eyes, and took a swig of coffee, as a
single page floated slowly onto Betty's Desk.
The page was old, hammered leather, frayed at the edges
patterned with centuries of book worms. The script was old, amendments in the
margins. The letters swam in front of them.
Thelma said comfortingly, "See, just the wind."
Betty reached for the page, and the words on the page
swirled and became tangible.
Betty stared at the page in her hand.
Thelma put down her coffee and came to stand behind Betty,
reading the single page over her shoulder.
She repeated the words aloud:
Vox (to his love): For you, I will break all the rules. I
will risk incurring the displeasure of the emperor. I forgive you all the
faults of time and distance. For that is the duty imposed by love.
Echo (Emperor): Love imposes that duty.
They were silent for a moment. Thelma returned to her seat,
a thoughtful look on her shoulders, "It seems familiar, but I can not say
I know it. Is there anything on the other side?"
Betty shook her eyes out of inaction and turned the page
over. She said, "Nothing."
Thelma said, "It came from upstairs, probably the Town
Museum. It may have been up there for years. The wind found it." She glanced at her watch and smiled.
Betty nodded, "I wonder what other surprises might be
waiting."
Thelma said, "We will deal with them, together. Old
pages from forgotten books are no match for us." She laughed and then
asked, "I am sorry, we have drifted a little. You were about to tell me
something important."
Betty smoothed out the page and reaching into her second
drawer, pulled out a paper sleeve and stored the page carefully and put it away
out of sight.
Betty started, "Yes. Now, remember that you are going
to believe everything I will tell you."
Thelma looked seriously, "Some bizarre things have been
happening here."
Betty looked at her sharply; maybe she had underestimated
Thelma, "What do you mean?"
Thelma leaned a little towards Betty, "Well, you know
the Library Writers Club you asked me to manage a while back... I send you the
minutes."
Betty frowned and then squashed a pang of guilt, "Thank
you. I do not have time to look under every stone and appreciate you taking
care of that one. But, perhaps I should have been more attentive, they are a
difficult bunch of individuals."
Thelma said, "There are not too bad. We meet each
second Monday at the Toni's Diner and, well, I listen to their stories and try
to encourage them."
Betty said quickly, "Please, not too much
encouragement. There are plenty of good books out there already. Look, I know
that writers are a strange lot. But, what is particularly strange about this
group."
Thelma said, "Well, I worry about them. They were all
just muddling along. It was social. Well, a couple of meetings ago, a new man
started coming along, Ged Richards. He is a local farmer and says he knows lots
about books and writers and publishers."
"Tell me the strange bit, please."
"Well, he has been helping the others finish off their
writings, even Jess. And, he is going to bring a well-known writer from the city
next meeting."
"It sounds like you are doing a good job, rather than
being strange."
"But Betty, my writers haven't got a clue."
Betty nodded, quietly approving of Thelma's intuition.
"And yet suddenly, they have manuscripts full of
writing and plots and characters."
Betty picked up her ears and was about to probe a little
deeper, but with a superhuman effort of will dragged the conversation back to
the purpose at hand.
"Thelma, I think you are doing a good job. And we can
talk a bit more about your writers tomorrow, but I need to talk to you now
about something more important."
Thelma said, "I am sorry Betty, I have spent your
evening talking about my problems. I appreciate your support of the Sir Arthur
Conan Doyle exhibit. It has all been a bit hectic the last while and..."
Betty held up her hand and smiled, "Thelma, that is
what I need to talk to you about."
Silence filled the library. The books crowded to the edge of
their shelves. The black cat leaned against the stairwell listening.
"Thelma, I am feeling very old."
Thelma drew in her breath. The dust behind Betty stirred and
twisted into the air. A chill filled the old library. Books shuffled on the
shelves. Upstairs, in the old museum, the floor settled softly.
"The last week was very hard for me. I need to talk to
you about it. Then I think we should talk about my retirement."
*
Jess & Ray (1)
With a squeal of rusty hinges, the black cat left the
library. It slithered and backed its way down the wall, shrugging off a
snowflake as it disappeared into the night.
Moments later it pushed its way into Toni's Diner and bent
to a bowl of warm cream in the kitchen. Suddenly, its ear pricked up. Alert, it
turned to look at the row of tables.
At the end Jess rose with a frown to meet Ray, "I am
glad you came. Can I get you a hot chocolate?" He nodded, and she called
out to Toni.
The black cat turned back to the cream, unsure. The cream
tasted sour.
Jess said to Ray, "I have a problem."
Toni arrived and said, "Be with you in a moment. Just
feeding the squad car, they had a car off the bridge tonight and are a bit
shook up."
Ray took out a scrap of paper and made a note, saying,
"Sec. Need to jot that down."
Jess didn't wait, "I have been trying..."
Ray finished and said, "You told me. But I have my book
to write. I still have 900 words to write tonight and..."
Jess said, "No, I have a huge problem."
Ray said, "We have talked about this. You have to kill
Bernice."
It was a little too loud, and the conversation in the diner
dropped perceptibly, so he added loudly, "Bernice, the character in the
book you are writing," He stressed Bernice and writing. Both of them
waited for the diner to fill with normal disinterested conversation.
Jess said, "I can't do it. I..."
Ray sighed loudly, and whispered loudly, "We have been
through this. Look. Killing a character is hard. It took me weeks to get the
nerve to kill my first one. But a bit of practice and, you know, it gets
effortless. Before you know it, you will be killing off whole families, little
children, cities, kittens!"
Jess looked around worriedly and nodded silently at the
police officers sitting a couple of tables down, and whispered loudly with a
gentle kick under the table, "Don't say 'kill.'"
Ray said, cautiously, "You have to do this Jess!"
"But, but…"
Ray had had this conversation a couple of times, and his
patience was wearing thin. He looked at the police officers, who had stopped
eating. "Here. I will show you." Ray moved his hand in the air
theatrically and hushed Jess. He brought out a piece of paper. "Watch."
The Black Cat silently jumped up on the seat back behind
Jess and peered down at Ray.
Ray wrote, "Bob finished putting on his tie and picked
up the flowers he had bought earlier." Ray explained to Jess, as an aside,
"See, the flowers make him a character of value. When we kill him, the
reader feels a loss." He nodded his head, silently asking her to agree.
Jess said, "No. No. You..."
Ray said, "It’s alright Jess. It will be all over
shortly. It is just words." He continued to write a little faster with every
word, "A block of ice fell onto a nearby wall. A dislodged brick shifted
imperceptibly and lost grip of its neighbors.” He looked at her, and wrote one
more sentence, “Fate hung in the balance."
Jess watched helplessly, eating her own words.
Ray wrote, "Just then, Bob slammed the door, and walked
to his appointed fate."
Suddenly there was a crash outside the diner. The cat jumped
onto the table, dislodging Jess's manuscript and for a moment chaos reigned.
Toni stomped out of his kitchen with a soup ladle, opened the door and peered
out into the night. Toni shook his head, "Careful when you leave tonight
folks; another brick has fallen off that dratted wall." He called out to
the police officers, "Can I put in a complaint about that?"
One of the officers called back, "Come on Toni. You
know the drill. Call City Hall."
Jess called to him, "When you have a moment, can we
have a couple of hot Chocolates please Toni?"
Toni turned and shot her a smile then shook his head.
Jess and Ray finished getting the papers back into order,
and Ray turned back to his exercise.
Ray held his hand above the page and froze. Written on the
page, under his writing, in a narrow painful text, were six new words he had
not written, "The brick fell after he passed"
Ray looked at Jess and then looked back at the writing,
vaguely annoyed at the lack of a full stop. He looked at Jess again, and his
eyes narrowed. Jess said, with a rush, "I have been trying to tell
you."
Ray asked, pointedly, "Did you write that?" He
pointed to words, which had been inexplicably joined by a couple more and some
punctuation. It now read, "The brick fell after he passed, and just after
he sat down" Still, there was no full stop. Ray suddenly felt cold.
Jess shook her head, "Listen to me." Ray shook his
head and put his hands out. She pulled out pages from the top of her manuscript
and put it on top of his note. "Look!"
She pointed to her writing and, just as he was about to
remonstrate pointedly about the incomplete sentence now in his example death
scene, he noticed the same narrow painful text on her page. A hasty thesis
formed in his mind and he blustered, "What are you doing!"
Jess simply said, "I don't write like that. Something
else has been writing in my story."
"Something?"
Jess whispered, "I sat down to write tonight. After my
talk with you. I told myself that tonight was the night I was going to..."
Her voice trailed off. "You know..." Her voice dropped to a whisper,
"Kill Bernice."
Jess whispered, "I sat down to write tonight. After my
talk with you. I told myself that tonight was the night I was going to..."
Her voice became more urgent and louder, "You know..." Her voice cut
through the air, "Kill Bernice."
A hush settled on the Diner.
Ray's eye caught the eye of one of the police officers a
couple of tables away, who had a ham and tomato burrito in his mouth but still
finding time to look at them with a little too much interest.
Ray's heartbeat got louder, and he started to pick up the
pace, "Ok, ok. Let's not put the other people here off their food. Let me
read what you wrote."
He started a couple of lines, "This time Bernice had
gone too far. She had slept with his girlfriend Meg. She had abducted his cat.
And she had burnt their office to the ground. He had no options left She was
going to pay for all the bad things she had done. He gunned his car once more
and waited for Bernice to leave the club."
Ray stopped at that point and looked up at Jess. They had
been reading each other's novel for a while now, and Ray had thought he had a
handle on Jess's plot and the character development in her story. They had
spent a little time on Meg: the clothes she wore, the cigarettes she preferred,
her weakness for Dutch licorice. But nothing hitherto had been mentioned about
Bernice sleeping with Meg. Ray felt a bit blindsided by this development and by
the inexplicable lack of another full stop.
He started to speak, but this time Jess got in first, loudly
banging both fists on the table, "I have been trying to kill her all day!
I blew up their office. I fixed her car so it would spin off the bridge! And
now..."
The policeman standing next to her with her gun drawn
repeated, "Now?"
Jess & Ray (2)
"Gonna level with you, buddy; I have no idea how to
respond to you."
The police officer put the thought of coffee cooling on her
desk out of mind and wondered whether it was time to resort to more direct
questioning.
Instead, she said, crossly, "Stop whimpering! I heard
every word at the diner. Your goose is cooked."
Ray was in a miserable state, slumped over the interview
desk, choking on every second word, "It's just words!", he managed.
The police officer shook her head, "No. No, Ray. Can I
call you Ray? It's not just words when it is about..." She took a quick
breath and said meaningfully, "... killing someone." She waited for
her words to sink in, and asked conversationally, "Do you see my point,
Ray?"
Ray begged piteously for his notebook back, but the police
officer said, "No, Ray. Your ‘note’ book is now evidence." She gave a
little shudder about the evil she had read in it in just a couple of seconds
scan. It was enough to suggest that the man who sat across her was a mass
murderer of biblical proportion. Ray howled a truly miserable sound, as the
police officer sat back, and wondered how many promotions this find would bring
her.
Just then, there was a sharp rap at the door. Ray stopped
wailing and looked up fearfully towards the door.
She couldn't help thinking that he ticked all her boxes as a
multiple murderer: white, male, middle-aged, slightly overweight, educated, a
checkered shirt with an ill-fitting jacket, no smokes, lots of credit cards in
his wallets, and he cried the moment he was put in an arm bind. The only thing
he had fought to keep was his notebook. She thought wryly, "for a good reason".
She pushed her chair out and walked carefully, backward, to
the door, "Don't try nothing."
He swallowed a sob and helpfully corrected her,
"Anything."
She broke. Two wild steps and she was over to him and
clipped his ear as hard as should without leaving a bruise.
He screamed in pain.
Her hand stung too, but it was good pain.
She again heard the insistent knock on the door and spat
silently "Filth" in his direction as she made for the door.
She imagined extracting confession after confession from him.
She nodded to herself, "It was always the quiet ones, the ones you don't
suspect."
*
Betty was locking up for the night when she heard a knock on
her door and opened it to the town police chief.
She looked at him with surprise and then a clench of fear.
He met her eyes and said quickly, "We have to
talk."
Inside, she made a pot of tea, and they sat facing each
other.
He outlined his concern without the need for any
pleasantries, "My officers arrested a couple of members of your library's
writer group tonight, on charges of attempted murder."
Betty stifled a gasp. She shook her head, suddenly worried
for all around her and the town.
He continued, "The thing is, there are no bodies. No
victims. But everyone is shook up, and I need you and me to calm 'em all
down."
The police chief was, of course, simplifying things a
little. One of the police officers had a deep, unexplained scratch down one
leg. Toby McFarlane was dead in the front seat of the old Buick they pulled out
of the river. City Hall had arrived just in time to see the rest of the wall
collapse. And no one was happy about where things stood.
Betty looked at him and said, "Writers?"
His faced creased, and he nodded.
Betty ventured, "A misunderstanding?"
Bob started, "Your writers..."
Betty shook her head and sighed, "Writers are so much
trouble."
Bob started, "My officers hear your writers talking
about killing a woman called Bernice." He asked hopefully, "Do you
know a Bernice in town?"
Betty thought long and hard, but not about Bernice.
She said, "Your officers heard a couple of writers
talking about books they are writing in Toni's Diner?" It was a guess, but
it fitted the facts.
Bob shuffled his feet, "I need you to come to talk to
them, and calm them down. I will bail them to you, and we will let things
quieten down over the next couple of days. Then we will drop everything unless
we find something was happening here."
She said directly, "What happened here, Bob? Spit it
out!"
He said directly, "Now you know I aint one for telling
stories about things I didn't see." He stopped momentarily worried about
his tense, conscious he was in the company of someone who probably knew what
the right word should have been. She gestured for him to continue, "But
the last couple of weeks have been tough on everyone, and all my people are on
edge."
She nodded, "Me too. Some strange things have happened.
Maybe just kids. Or animals." She paused for a moment, "Give me some
examples."
He said, "Maybe kids. Stupid things. All the teaspoons
have been pinched from the diners — every one of them. A couple of power poles
have been brought down around town. Something has been pulling the tires off
wheels."
Betty sat very still, "I don't think any of those
things are silly."
He asked, "Will you help me calm things down? I think
my people over-reacted."
Betty said, "Those writers had no business causing a
fuss and diverting the law from its proper purposes. Drop the charges now, and
no lawyers need to get involved. And I will have a word to those who need to
know to stop this happening again."
He shook his head. “Hard bargain, but let's try it.”
Jess & Ray (3)
She left the police station in a daze. The police officer
was full of small talk, but she was still on edge, images of the interview room
light, cold cups of coffee seared into her eyes and soft words from the town
librarian. She stumbled out of the police car, hoping no one in her street
would be curious enough to look down on her strange arrival home.
The police driver said things to her then, but the words
didn’t register: just snowflakes that melt into the skin.
Inside, she locked the door and rested against it. She
ignored the mobile ringing in her bag, throwing it onto the bed and making her
way unsteadily to her small kitchen and tossed down a glass of water.
The mobile was still ringing. She looked at the bathroom,
but ended up on the bed, taking the bundle of her manuscript, the police
docket, and Ray’s notebook. She sighed, and the phone tumbled onto the bed.
She picked it up and flicked answer.
She heard his voice, clear, “Are you ok?”
She said, “That wasn’t fun.”
Ray sounded as upset as her, “They hit me. Hard.”
She noticed his breathing, sharp and uneven, “Your notebook.
It is with my gear.” She rustled through the papers, “Everything seems to be
here.”
She heard him let out a deep sigh, “Thank you.”
And then, an afterthought, “Did they hurt you?”
She thought of the lost hours, between the holding cell and
the interview room. She heard him, more anxious, “Are you there.”
“They didn’t touch me. But every part of me feels damaged.”
Then, feeling a bit insensitive, “Why did they hit you?”
As Ray spoke, her eyes rested on the top page of her
manuscript.
She let out a short cry of pain, and he stopped talking,
“What!”
She started to shake. “My story, the story, there is more
writing. I…”
He said. “Jess! Shut your eyes. Move away from it!”
She whimpered. In the darkness, she felt a tendril of smoke
dancing nearby, searching for her.
She fell off the bed, and half ran into the bathroom,
shutting the door behind her.
The Black Cat (1)
The Black Cat snuck in through the back door of the cafe.
Annapurna and Maxwell (1)
Maxwell bent down and scratched the cat's head, then lifted
his watch and looked back out of the cafe's window.
He saw her walking along the uneven pavement, tall and
proud, shoulder set and head a little back. He started to smile, his mind
filled with a spill of words, the wind catching the smoke wafting from her
mouth and her scarf ruffling the edge of the mind. A gust of snow silhouetted
her as she paused to let a council plow push past, and then she picked her way
carefully across the icy road.
By the time she had sat down, the story in his mind had
advanced to drinks at a bar and the exchange of glances.
"Snap out of it, if you don't mind. Maxwell."
Maxwell gave her a dreamy look, "I think I got 500
words then." On a piece of paper in front of him, he was doodling.
"Don't you dare write about me!" She called an
order to the waiter. The waiter moved a little reluctantly from the TV, playing
a documentary on Sputnik, "This is the beginning of a new era of Mankind.
The era of Man's cosmic existence. "You will now hear the voice of the
Russian Moon, Sputnik!...." The Russian voice faded into the hiss of the
coffee maker.
She glanced at his paper, nothing but half butterflies.
Maxwell said, "I am glad you could make it."
She nodded and drew out her notes. In the background, the
documentary continued, "All over the world, people are tuning in to the
'Bleep Bleep' of the satellite..."
Maxwell started, conversationally, "I was too young for
Sputnik. I remember Apollo, though. Good times."
Annapurna sighed, "My mother and I watched the repeats
on News of India at the theatre. I so wanted to be a cosmonaut." She
thought for a moment and smiled, "I still do, and a cricket player."
The waiter brought two steaming mugs of coffee, and a small
bowl of cream for the cat, adding with a slight shrug, "Sorry, no
teaspoons, all I can offer you is a fork."
Annapurna' s eyebrows lifted, "This is most
irregular." She smiled, "Tell me, Andy, what disaster has befallen
the kitchen of the great Chef Fred Murphy to occasion such a loss?"
Andy shrugged again, "Someone pinched them all."
He reached for the TV, reducing the sound a little.
Maxwell took a long sip of coffee and then said with
meaning, "Thank you. And thank you for the words."
She nodded at his doodles, and asked, "Your writing, it
is proceeding well?"
Maxwell laughed, "You know, I always liked drawing
little shapes, but now the words are all over me. Hell yes, the words are just
dripping off my pen. I can't stop. Everything I see become part of the story.
And the..."
She cocked her head and with a click at the back of her
throat brought him to a stop, "I am pleased you are writing, but remember
our agreement, please. I am not a fan of romantic novels. The details are
too... steamy."
Maxwell came to a complete stop and added another couple of
lines to the novel in his head. He said, "I am sure you will love this
one."
She said, "No, Maxwell, I would not. But, I am pleased
to be here to lend you a little encouragement and inspiration. And, maybe, one
day you will write a piece that does not involve touching and kissing
and..."
Maxwell thought and quickly added, "...fast cars. And exotic resorts in faraway places."
Annapurna and Maxwell (2)
He remembered their first adventure in the Town Library when
she lent him cover as they explored the rows of paperback love stories. She had
carefully picked a time when the old librarian was at lunch so they could
explore without disapproving glances, and let him use her library card to take
out a couple of likely books, for him to get a feel for the genre. He was
determined to write a bestseller.
Annapurna smiled and took her coffee and skimmed a hole in
the froth with the fork and added five sugars, "I am sure Toni's Diner
would never run out of teaspoons."
He watched, with a tingle, the fall of so much sweetener and
added, "I told you, Toni's Diner is shut tonight. I don't know why."
His hand picked up his pencil and started a new shape.
She said, "I don't mind. I like this place. Fred and
Andy have been good friends since I moved here."
Maxwell felt her composure: unwavering and impenetrable. He
stayed a hundred questions about her past.
The cat slurped the last of the cream and looked up at her.
He asked, "How is your writing going?"
Annapurna sighed, "I started to write about a young,
broke woman detective. But I was watching a little TV, and I find that every
second show is about that same person. Maxwell, I have decided to do something
different. I want you to tell me whether it is novel or commonplace. If it is
commonplace, I will have to look for another theme. Will you help? I feel that
I am behind all the rest of you, and would desperately wish to have a couple of
pages of writing before the next meeting."
Maxwell laughed, "Do not be in such a hurry. None of us
had written anything of any length until a couple of weeks ago. And then it was
like the tap got switched on somewhere and we are all full of words
and..."
Annapurna waited, watching his eyes drift over a couple
sitting, holding hands, "Maxwell?"
He shook his head, "It is like I am seeing the world
for the first time. Seeing the love, the angst, the hate, the passion. I can't
stop the words."
She let a small laugh fall over him, and his face softened,
"Ok, lay it on me. Give me your theme."
Annapurna started, seriously. "I think I will call my
book, 'Again, Me.' I can feel the beginning."
Her eyes took on a faraway look:
"We have smiled many times, you and I,
About how spring and fall go hand in hand for us.
The joy of
Persephone's return for one
Is moderated by the despair of her departure for the other.
And the joy that such mind games evoke
Wake so many other memories, sad and happy still."
Maxwell smiled and looked at her sipping, "A love
story!"
She laughed and shook her head, "No. I think it is a
strange history of our world. A bit like Sputnik's 'Beep Beep' ".
"How so?"
"I thought I would weave a story about the end of the
world as we know it. A clash of the old world and the new."
He speculated with a smile, "A Science Fiction Double
Feature!"
She pursed her lips, "A late night picture show? No.
Nothing so grand. I was wondering about how libraries are being left in the
dust of the new technology. I would write about how a library falls victim to
technology. I would write about our town library. Well, not about it, so you
knew it. But with all the people, including the old librarian and her
staff."
Maxwell said, "It sounds a little dry. I can't imagine
that a library is all that exciting."
She said, "I think that the challenges they face are
pretty overwhelming. Imagine how much work they put into keeping those
institutions alive, how much social capital is invested in those shelves, how
important they have been for the towns themselves. And how they are becoming
irrelevant to today. How the internet is going to destroy it all like some
beast in an old fable."
He said, "Sounds like a sad tale. How can you spark it
up? Maybe a love affair between the old
librarian and the local internet provider can..."
She said, "No love stories. I do not know how to tell
this. I want to do something
grand."
He said, "Do something unexpected."
The cat rubbed against her legs, and she looked down. The
cat caught her eye then jumped up on the table and onto the back of Maxwell's
chair.
She asked, "What are you drawing."
He laughed and said, "You know I doodle. It is nothing
but..."
She reached out and turned the page around.
There on the page shimmered a dragon, drawn draped around a
book.
Betty (2)
Betty sits in her easy chair, a half glass of red on the
small table next to her, an old lamp casting a bright light but leaving dim
shadows just out of reach. She does not need to read the note in the album open
on her lap. Her husband’s last note to her, she knows every word:
“We have smiled many times, you and
I, about how spring and fall go hand in hand for you and me. The joy
of Persephone's return for one is moderated by the despair of her leaving
for the other. And the joy that such mind games are invoked so many other
memories, sad and happy still.”
The glass of wine and album exchange places, but the words
still hang in her mind. She feels a rush of blood in her face and small
goosebumps up an arm, and then waits for the ache of loss to come and pass. She
tries to dismiss the memories of farewells at the railway station, of the flags
flying at half mast as the cemetery and the hundred touches of his mind all
around her.
Instead, she tries to concentrate on the evening behind her.
The meeting with Thelma had not gone smoothly. Betty shook her head: that girl
has too many distractions. When Betty had finally got to the point of the
meeting, Thelma had met Betty’s talk of retirement with nervous laughter and
paper thin assurances that Betty had years of working life still before her.
Betty shook her head again, “What do the young know?” The house settled in
quiet agreement.
She had needed an opportunity to talk it through with
someone, to chew it from different angles, to hear that they understood and
were ready to take up the mantle. Didn’t happen. All Betty got was a pat on the
back, a glance at the watch and a fast goodnight.
Betty frowned. Then there was that business with the police
chief and a strange trip to the lockup to extract a couple of writers. Betty
recognized both Ray and Jess. She also recognized the police officers. Everyone was in a state of upset. They had been coming to the library since they
were little kids. She had glared at situation and then quietly worked to restore
calm. After the writers were released she shared a couple of gentle words with
the police officers and the chief, suggesting that the world would make more
sense after a good night sleep.
But sleep was not coming to her. Quietly, her mind was
combing through the debris pulling together all those small threads that elude
one at the time. There were a surprising number of threads but, as yet, no hint
of a plot. The absence of a plot offended Betty. She sniffed.
She sipped the wine, wondering why the internet was so attractive
to the young, greedy, immediate and full of life. Her mind was suddenly touched
a new fear that, if permitted, the internet would consume all the libraries and
their librarians in an instance. The young and greedy might make such a bargain,
if in return they were given the gift of access to all that once existed.
She shook those cobwebs out of her head. It is an illusion. Such
a promise however well-meant cannot be delivered with certainty.
Interlude: Librarians
A note on the language of Librarians. Librarians guard a lot
of specialist words from the ravages of popular culture in what is called the
Libris Onomasticon. It contains neat words like prosopography, epistolary,
metaliterary, gravitas, sanctitas, and constantia libertas that are just as deadly as nuclear
warheads and are best kept hidden from the rest of the world.
Jane and Nick
The Black Cat sauntered across the bridge across the town
common, and was briefly considering a rat around the boat shed when Jane came
walking by. She was deep in thought: hands deep in pockets, hair and face
wrapped in a scarf topped by a hand knitted beanie. A drift of snowflakes fell
over the pond, and the Black Cat turned to follow a different destiny.
Jane stepped over the fallen wall before opening the Café
door to a rush of warmth. The Black Cat scuttled in and waited for her to walk
to her usual seat. She waved at the waiter and took out her pad and licked a
pencil.
She started to write:
"Once upon a time
There was a little vampire girl who wished more than
anything in the world, more than kittens and puppies, that a knight in shiny
armor would come and... Well, to be honest, at that point, it gets a bit
unclear what she wanted. And it changed from day to day depending on what she
had eaten the night before.
Sadly, knights in shiny armor are not as familiar as they
used to be. These days you need to be involved in currency swaps to get that
sort of gig. They tend to congregate in financial hubs, well away from the
countryside, or at least, the bit of park where the little vampire girl hunted.
All in all, out her way, knights were a bit thin on the ground. If we could
persuade one of those bright young researchers to come and look around, which
might not be such a good career move, they would probably find many more frogs
than knights.
On the day the little Vampire Girl met her knight, it was a
wet, dark New England day. The sort of day her cookbook called an Indian
Summer. A brief warm flush under the imminent threat of an icy blast catching
the vermin afoot in the bright green, sickly woods. A day full of croaking
frogs. A bit beside the point, but it might explain what happened next.
Perhaps unexpectedly but entirely within the realm of
probabilities, the little vampire girl met a frog rather than a knight.
She raised him by one leg, hesitating briefly, wondering
which bit she should eat first. In confusion, he reached out and gave her a
quick kiss.
Against the odds, and before anything else could happen
(which might be a reason for subsequent regret), she turned into a frog as
well.
A couple of days later, they were still together and working
on the whole frog thing. But just as it looked like everything might work out,
the park started to freeze."
Nick quietly pulled up a seat opposite, silently ordering
the usual with a wave and a smile and giving the cat a quick head scratch. He
waited until Jane stopped scribbling, and she looked up at him, "Oh. Hi Nick.
It happened again!"
"I saw."
Jane held up her notes. Writing filled the pages with small
drawings, "I don't know where it comes from."
He pushed her a smoking hot chocolate, "You keep
surprising me, you know. What did she kill today?"
She shuffled through her notes as he tipped a jug of milk
into the cat's bowl and put it on the table next to him. The Black Cat growled.
Jane looked up with a note of relief, "Nothing. She
turned into a frog. I might be safe for a bit."
He turned and coughed into his arm, "Any more
dreams?"
"Just the normal. Nothing I can't handle." She
looked at him, "Did you start to smoke again?"
He shook his head, "Have you eaten?"
"I am starved."
The Black Cat pricked up its ears and sat back in its seat,
washing its face.
"I thought so.
Toni is cooking us pancakes." He held out his hand to her, and she gave
him her manuscript to check.
Then she fished a big pad out of her bag. She licked the tip
of her pencil, "Your turn."
The light dimmed slightly.
He started to speak, and she raced to copy his words down.
Nick's story:
"The trigger to memory is like a key, shaped out of
insubstantial stuff - the touch of a breeze, a native tree in bloom, the bark
of a dog, a crow sitting on a far wire, the echo of E Flat minor or a green frog
jumping on concrete. Once you turn the key, it all comes flooding back.
I do not know where the memories are kept. They are not in
my head, for I have searched every room and dug out every canal and broken down
every door in my head till there in Nothing but sunlight. They are not written
in books nor recorded on tape or taped to the back of some elder's head. They
require space beyond the capacity of the vaults of physical or organic systems.
It is a mystery.
In one of the old chronicles, I read that you can go back in
time to a particular moment, but you first must build an anchor and throw it
into the river of time so that you can pull yourself back. I cannot remember
doing that. I cannot remember saying I must remember this.
We dabble in the great mysteries yet do not understand: this
the most minor and most insubstantial of things.
When I was young, I thought time the only enemy I could not
defeat. Now I am older, I know that isn't so, for, in an instance, it is
possible to span all those distances and be back in the warmth of those you
love.
I ran out of coffee this week and lived a pitiful couple of
days without the smell of brewed coffee. I became short, argued with the
cockatoos, and did not greet the crows who tend my gardens with my customary smile.
Today I smiled at your story, and I ground coffee, sat, letting it transport me
back to the poetry of Ibn Sa'id al-Maghribi and Andalusia.
I shut my eyes, and I am still there, on that long veranda I
slept on those long hot summer nights. I smelled the pepper trees and listened
to the soft troop of sheep to the dam across in the paddocks. Watching the last
sliver of sunlight slowly drain from the sky, remembering how we used to fly to
the moon, rowing a saucer with spoons.
My very stern Grandmother left Pa in bed each day before
dawn and started the fire burner to heat the station's water and cook the
morning bread and scones. A sprawling, dusty remote farm on the edge of the
desert, with a splendid avenue of trees, she kept alive with precious water for
roads that never came. She guarded her big pantry from the kitchen: a pantry
full of sacks of flour and smelling of rising dough against all comers and
curious children. So many treats came from the pantry we children built a
picture of a cavern full of so much sweet treasure, she would surely never
notice some missing.
Deep in the house's bowels, we found another way into the
pantry, through the maid's room, now barricaded against the ages and an
unspoken scandal, and filled with old school books from just after the Great
War and curios Pa brought back from Cairo and Palestine. Behind the wardroom,
we found a long-forgotten door and a winding corridor and sat wondering whether
to risk all on taking that final, irrevocable step of raiding the pantry.
We never did, for by the time we found the nerve, it was
time for tea. And as Grandmother stirred the sugar for us all, she told us of
how we could fly to the moon.
Perhaps it takes loss to know what we once held but, if ever
another loved us, part of them still rest within our hearts, together with
their stories."
Toni waited till Jane put down her pencil and Nick shook the
cobwebs out of his head. He walked over with a tray of pancakes with
strawberries, the fruit of the forest, and cream. "Sorry guys, no spoons…
Don't ask."
Jane said, "Come on, Toni. You can tell us."
He shook his head, "A lot of drama here tonight. Eat
up; I will come to tell you about it later. Maybe you can write it into one of
your books."
The Players
Town Library
Betty: Chief Librarian of a small New England town, on the front line of the advance of the new technologies. Loves books but has a dim view of writers. Within Betty's Library, there is a writer's group, being managed by Thelma, Betty's senior librarian. Free of effective curation the modern writer can be a powerful force for change, good and evil.
Thelma: 2IC at the library, has a child at home, and is researching a library exhibit about Sir Arthur Conan Doyle and Sherlock Holmes. In charge of the Library's Writers Group.
Monastery Library
Father Luis: Librarian at the town's Monastery. Strongly adheres to wisdom of the Church leaders who banned the Dewy System from his library. Betty had whispered once that Father Luis had sought special dispensation from his silent order to meet with her and the local Book Club, to keep the Order up to date with Current Events.
The Future Library
Sara: Baby sitter turned dragon-carer. Sarah had just dyed her hair black but really wants to go red. Still in college and, recently, busted up with her boyfriend. Thelma has dismissed rumors that Sarah only comes to the library to access the free Wi-Fi.
Rodi: Friend of Sara. Rodi is trying to get a job at the town library and works here from time to time as a volunteer. Shy and retiring, it is unclear whether Rodi is male or female. Rodi has been reading "The Power of Positive Thinking" for a while now and had updated the Library’s online tracking register, which Rodi had set up, to indicate that Rodi had got to page 45.
The Little Dragon: Vulnerable to her appetite, consuming more than she can understand, susceptible to all those things that can destroy electronic knowledge in a moment. But she is also vulnerable because, unlike Betty's Library, there is no one to organize and curate the volumes she consumes. The little dragon is the darling of youth, here represented by Sarah and Roddi. Enthusiastic and kind, englamoured by the beauty of the beast, but all too well aware of its vulnerabilities.
Library's Writers Group
Ged Richards: a local farmer who knows a bit about books and writers and publishers. He has unexpectedly inspired the Library's Writers Group to fill pages with plots and characters.
Jess: Preparing a complicated story about Bernice.
Ray: A slight man who has been laid off from the town's co-operative shoe factory, he is writing a spy story featuring mass murderers.
Maxwell: Wants to write a best seller love story.
Annapurna: Writing about a woman detective but wants to write about the threat of the internet.
Jane: Working on a vampire novel and dabbling in conspiracies. Nick is trying to save her.
Nick: Relatively new in town, same age as Emma and dressed in cute casual clothing. He had just moved into an old place down near the lake. Suffering from amnesia he also has trouble holding a pencil and cannot write. Jane is helping him.
Others
Emma: Had some problems last book and is currently living with her sister in a commune upstate.
Toni: Runs a Diner
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